There's lots of sadness in our house at the moment. As a mother you know when things are not right with your kids...it's a mothers intuition. I have known for some time that my sons marriage was floundering. Who can say why...no-one can. It happened to me in 1987 and resulted in 11 years as a single parent but now 23 years later we are all happy and my ex-husband comes round with his partner most weekends as we all spend time as a family.
Olly though has a huge task on his hands...he is looking after the children...working as best he can..as well as trying hard to hold on to his emotions and go through this pain while all the time asking questions and wondering if things could have been different. I hate to say it but I think it was always going to end this way...as my mother always used to say 'the onlooker sees most of the game'.
So I am helping as best I can and spend each Wednesday with my baby grand-son ...going to toddler club..chasing around with young mums with a packet of wet-wipes and a bag of nappies...drinking tea and swapping baby stories..then went to sports day to watch Rosie in 4 races which was great fun!
Life deals us some nasty blows but I know we are all strong enough to cope with this ...being a nannie has taken on a new meaning now. I had forgotten how hard it is to look after little ones all day..I was fast asleep by 9pm last night and I am looking forward to a whole day sewing today!!